23 5 / 2013
- 1: shit baby you're so wet already
- 2: that's actually just vaginal discharge and my body is cleansing itself from bacteria and dead cells to prevent infection and to maintain optimal reproductive health i'm not even all that turned on right now and i would prefer to go get some food or something
23 5 / 2013
After reading aragorn-sass’s post, and thinking about a couple convo’s I’ve either had or read here on tumblr I’m curious to know how much this is an actual thing.
In my late teens and early adulthood, if i’d gotten a dollar for every time a friend literally told me “my girlfriend/boyfriend’s afraid of you” i’d have many dollars. i have flat affect, which tended to cause people to seek my approval and sometimes still does. and, for some reason, people tend to pigeonhole me based on appearance as someone who’s afraid of confrontation and i am most definitely not, so maybe the surprise factor enhances the “intimidating” thing. I also have had my bluntness come off as really judgmental, too. I have a hard time perceiving people’s possible responses to something i say or do.
I think blackfoxx and freshmouthgoddess have also gotten this, but I regularly had my friends say, about their bf’s, that I looked like the type a “girl” you don’t fuck with.
I was 5’2 (barely), and barely 105 as a teen, with hair hiding my glasses covered face. In my early twenties I was 125 and even super femme, negroes tip toed around me.
As an adult I still have to deal with my lil’ brothers and roommates friends being terrified, like so terrified it’s damn near emanating off um.
It has become common for me to leave places to escape the awkward.
White girls tell me everyday they’re terrified of me.
Even white men. GROWN ASS SALTY ASS SAILORS tell me I terrify them.
And I don’t even be doing shit. I talk shit, sure, but that’s usually all it is. I’m just out here trying to function and shit but these motherfuckers are always telling me that “You’re a big Black woman, and that’s scary by itself.”
Even the Marines in my class back in A-school were scared of me.
I know I look intimidating because when I break composure and smile or something, men try to fuck with me. I’ve been out and about in the world since I was 11 and I am comfortable still 11 years later giving off the presence of “come near me and you will regret it.” I once stopped a guy in his tracks looking at him. If I wasn’t my friends so much even more people would avoid me and I’m okay with that for the most part. I kinda respect some people more when they approach me anyway, but usually I get annoyed because expressing my femininity suddenly means I want men to approach me.
23 5 / 2013
I wish Professor McGonagall ended all her classes by snapping her fingers, saying “McGonagone” then strutting out.